We currently have four pregnant teachers at my school (that I know of). There are two in the school level where I teach (middle school). I went to the baby shower for one of the pregnant teachers, ignored two (both elementary) and have just received the invitation for the last.
A few weeks ago I gave that teacher a crocheted baby blanket I had made. I went to her and asked her if she would mind if I didn't go.
Am I being selfish? I just don't want to go through all the words about being pregnant and how being a mother is so wonderful and the best thing in the world. I get paranoid. Will they ask me when I'm going to have kids? They probably don't even think it, but I do enough for them.
I'm hoping that if this doesn't work and my hormones go back to "normal" without all this medically induced emotional rollercoaster I will not mind going to these things and being so happy for the women having babies. I want to be happy for them. I am happy for my friends. Is it okay to just not celebrate with them for a little bit?
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Not selfish - and at least you can blame it on the hormones. I just had to blame it on my own innate meannness. Still do, sometimes - the feelings haven't gone away even though I have kids now. Good luck with the ultrasound tomorrow.
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